Restitution is Available

I took another step into the redemptive waters of healing and evaluated some dry bones of festering grief.

As anxiety tries to swell and my hands begin to become unsteady on this wireless keyboard, God instructs me to take a deep breath as I release this life lesson. It has set like stagnant swamp water rotting in my belly, surrounded by a secret plantation of undocumented, foreign bodies. It has housed slaves shackled in trauma, slaves of darkness, and slaves of fear.

Revelation exposes the truth. I had contaminated my field by my own blood shed. I had sown seeds of insecurity, inconsistency, and instability at an early age. When my seeds manifested according to what I planted, I was devastated. The repetitive generational cycle claimed my inheritance.

Infestations attacked my fruit.
Toxins invaded my soil.
My wells contained lead.

My seeds suffered toxic lead poisoning, because I wasn’t equipped for the call. My legs collapsed under the pressure of guardianship. My undeveloped breast failed to nurse. My recycled, safety net exposed my crop to harsh, adverse weather conditions. At night, the predators feasted on my harvest because my post was uncovered.

Shame tried to disfigure God’s plan.
Guilt tried to arrest his promise.
Condemnation tried to crucify his truth.

However, I trust God to replenish what the locusts have eaten. I trust that he will supply according to his riches. I trust that he will produce milk and honey in a barren land. I trust that he will give beauty for ashes.

God didn’t change his mind cause you stumbled in a prior season.

He will raise up an army to possess the land that you neglected.

He will tear down the walls of Jericho.

He will show you favor like Rehab.

"The poor and needy search for water, but there is none: their tongues are parched with thirst. But the Lord will answer them. I will make rivers flow on barren heights, and springs within the valleys. I will turn the desert into pools of water, and the parched ground into springs. I will put in the desert the cedar and the acacia, the myrtle and the olive. I will set junipers in the wasteland, the fir and the cypress together, so that people may see and know, may consider and understand, that the hand of the Lord has done this, that the Holy One of Israel has created it." 
                                                                                                                  -Isaiah 41:17-20