Freedom from the Performance Trap

Jesus said to her, "Did I not say to you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?" John 11:40

Whenever I find myself needing to extend "grace" to myself for mistakes, my arms tend to come up short. However this weekend, I took on more than I could rightfully own. I literally ran myself into the ground trying to "perform."    

Somehow, I circled the same block and insisted on showcasing a "united front" that said, "I got this (without help)! I made an executive decision to spread myself too thin. I juggled responsibilities that were too big for my hands. I miscalculated and leaned too far to the left. The distractions, discomfort and demands got the best of me. I cracked under pressure! The tears were evidence that I hadn't fully shifted. Obviously, I had strayed away once again from God's truth and was still stranded in "survival mode."

Between the frustration, tears, and prayers, God interceded and sent divine intervention. My cousin showed up and literally held my arms up. She allowed me to step from behind the veil, without judgement. She carried my weariness upon her shoulders. She leaned into God to bridge the gap of my unrest. Her intercession served as a pleasant reminder that God's peace is present in the midst of pain.

The enemy thrives in chaos. He loves to launch those same old fiery darts that keep us oppressed by people pleasing, pride, and "performing!"

On today, I granted myself permission to fully surrender on another level....

The glory fell.
My soul quickened.
Freedom shook the trap.

In the words of my Sister in Christ on tonight at Bible Study, "This is my slay!"

Slaying all the bondage, blockage, and barriers to God's truth.  

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." Galatians 5:1